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Tuesday, January 29, 2008, 23:37
losing trust is easy but gainning it is not.
making frens is easy but keeping it is not.
i was watching a chinese drama then there was this phrase.
" a day will pass even if we are feeling hapy or sad."
that is so true.so y dont we live it to the fullest.
btw thanks siti and nadya for being there.(:
appriciated babes.(:
because the future is uncertain.
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Sunday, January 27, 2008, 16:14
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and my week just have to end with my precious pictures being "washed" in the washing machine.arrgh!!
but then somehow mr faris is always there to assure me that everythings alright.and thats y hes the best bf ever.(:
random facts abt guys.found it on the bulletin board in frenster.(:
--Guys hate sluts even thoughtheyhave sex with them!(oh yeah..you're not "popular" ifyou've slept with more than 6guys..you're a HOE)
--Guys may be flirting around all daybut before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
--Guys hate it when you talk aboutyour ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.
--Boyfriends need to be reassuredoften that they're still loved.
--Don't talk about your guy friends toyour boyfriend.
--Guys get jealous easily.
--Guys are more emotional than they'dlike people to think.
--Giving a guy a hanging messagelike "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would makehim jump to a conclusion that is farfrom what you are thinking. And he'llassume he did something wrong andhe'll obsess about it trying to figureit out.
--Guys are good flatterers whencourting but they usually stammer whenthey talk to a girl they really like(this is so true)haha.
--A usual act that proves that the guylikes you is when he teases you.(dont agree that much.can tease as fren what)
--Guys love you more than you lovethem if they are serious in yourrelationships.
--Guys think WAY too much. One smallthing a girl does, even if she doesn'tnotice it can make the guy think aboutit for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.
--Guys seek for advice from girls notother guys. Because most guys thinkalike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.
--When a guy asks you to leave himalone, he's just actuallysaying, "Please come and listen to me."
--If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen thatoften, so when it does, you knowsomething's up.
--If your best guy friend seems toavoid you or is never around whenyou're with your boyfriend, he'sprobably jealous and likes you.
--When a guy tells you that you arebeautiful, don't say you aren't. Itmakes them want to stop telling youbecause they don't want you todisagree with them.
--When a guy looks at you for longerthan a second, he's definitelythinking something.
--Guys don't like girls who punchharder than they do.
--A guy has more problems than you cansee with your naked eyes.
--Don't be a snob. Guys can beintimidated and give up easily.
--Guys talk about girls more thangirls talk about guys.
--Guys hate rejection, but they hatebeing led on even more.
--If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like abrother or just good friends, it justhurts even more. Tell them that youaren't interested in a relationshipand they will respect you.
--Guys really think that girls arestrange and have unpredictabledecisions and are MAD confusing butsomehow are drawn even more to them.
--When a guy sacrifices his sleep andhealth just to be with you, he reallylikes you and wants to be with you asmuch as possible.
*those in red are agreed.*
to dearest bf,sorry for being the worst gf ever.
im counting down the days to 29/02/08.(:
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Friday, January 25, 2008, 00:19
but theres this 1 particular fren whom i really2 missed.she was my bestfren.we shared almost everything together.till 1 day,i have just to make a foolish mistake and then.the years of frenship gone to waste.just like that.the easiest 3 letter words are usually the most difficult to say it out.i wish i hasnt been so ego and just say those 3 words to u."i am sorry"i noe shes doing well and is happy with her life.well,im happy for her as well.but somehw deep2 in my heart i hope,and pray that 1 day,i could call her as my bestfren again.no name mention,i hope she noe whu she is.
it has been a while since i had a reunion with my frens.and i noe its nt gg to happen any soon.we seem to be drifting apart frm each other.im thankful that for once im my life i had u guys a frens.
friendship divides our sorrow and doubles our joy:)
what makes a good relationship?i have been asking that qn to myself this past few days.for me,its honesty,communication,love and most importanly TRUST.trust is a very strong word.and its not just a word,coz when u lose someones trust it ain't easy gaining it back.even if u did gain it back,i can tell u it will never be the same as the original one.there will still be some percentage of it missing.so,tell me, when yr bf cheats on u,tell u lies and his reason was nt to hurt u;its like wth.the truth will always hurt.its better to hear it frm his mouth than to find out later yrself.agreed?im nt posting this becoz im having a fight wif my bf or wat no,im nt.its just self reflecting time.and i more thing that is need in a relationship is sacrifice.a lot of it.u ahve to sacrifice yr time and money.so u c,a good relationship isnt based on just love alone.it has a lot of other things that need to be put in as well.and yah,commitment.thats another strong word to use.r u really ready to commit yrself to that person frm nw till the day u die?
i wish ur just my best fren.really.
life is never fair.
GD NIGHT!!
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Thursday, January 24, 2008, 23:41
this week has been bad.real bad.everything just seems to be out of control.ok maybe im overreacting but still i had a bad week.pffft!!its the weekends again.and hopefully these 2 days of work is gonna be easy.no fuct up customers or shortage of money.i want to dissapear nw can?
BYE!!
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008, 23:21
| Your Five Variable Love Profile |
 Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together . |
| What Nurulhuda Means |
 You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. |
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Tuesday, January 22, 2008, 23:45
lets start by saying i was otw to sch in the train.as u noe the train is damn packed early in the morning.and then ppl started pushing.then there was this aunty,whu keep on pushing and pushing and the person behind me was so close that i could actually feel her breathing.that was hw CLOSE i was to her.and then i began to feel so damn irritated.bt then i just keep cool.upon reaching sch, did some activity then my classmates was disturbing this 1 girl in my class.tk bole kene kacau,she called her fren next door saying that i wanna get to noe him.that is like soooo fcuking irritating.the 2 time i felt pissed off.lunch then to vb class.and the next person to irritate me was my bf.as usual he was late.i dont find y he cant be PUNCTUAL everytime we meet.theres a limit to everyones patient.it just takes time before i really blow my top off.really.and yah,before bf arrived i was waiting for him at clementi mrt station.then i was standng in between 2 poles.near the busstop.and i dont understand y everyone that alight frm the buses just have to walk thru that 2 poles.padahal ade lagi tmpat yg besar utk dorg jln ok!i was damn pissed off sia.i really feel like shouting just nw.arggh.wth.maybe walking thru that 2 poles might bring gd luck.WATEVER!!and my day just have to end with my hair clip breaking.hw much suey-er can i get?
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i wish i could do this.instead of frowning non-stop just nw.
moving on.
lets update abt my weekend.my weekend was ok la.sat was out wif bf to his besfren bro's wedding.after the wedding we went to ct hall to just lepak.then he sent me home.
on sunday was work.was supposed to work frm 9.30 -10 but due to laziness i came to work at 2pm.if there are a lot of ppl like me ,singapore wouldnt prosper.aha.after work bf fetched me.(:
on monday i didnt go to sch.went out with siti.we went karaoke just the 2 of us.fun!and then eat at lucky plaza.will only be meeting her after cny.cant wait for cny coz i will be working.weee.that means more money.hehe.(:
tmrrow is already a wednesday.and im gg to start my day with a smile tmrrow.*hopefully*
GD NIGHT!!!!!
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Sunday, January 20, 2008, 00:45
he never fail to say "lawa la matair i" everytime i wear something nice.and that makes me smile.
everytime.(:
GD NIGHT!!
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Friday, January 18, 2008, 17:07
HELLO!
when we were young, we were make to believe that all stepmothers are cruel and evil.as i grow up and having to live with a stepmom myself.let me say.that is just so true.im nt steorotyping.bt its so hard to hear someone whu live with a stepmom and feels comfortable,happy and treat her as yr own mother.hmm.i tried to be nice to her on a few occasion bt i i cant.it just feels so weird.argh!!im hoping that a miracle will happen.*sigh
i noe deep2 down my dad loves me.dad,i love u too.i never ever said this to you.coz it just felt weitd,ever since you married a new women,we drifted apart.as if im in singapore and u,london.i dont blame u.sometimes u sat dwn with me and tell me hw u felt,i wish i cld take all yr pain away.seriously,i can c ur holding back yr tears.i appriciate all that u have done to me.eventhough i have nt been a gd daughter to u all this while,always making u worried abt my whereabts,coming hm late after severals warning.bt still,never have u ever lay yr hands on me.u talk,advice and i never listen.thas hw stubborn i am.sorry for everything.and right nw,i noe what u need is space and a break.i wish i cold have the courage to tell u hw much i care.hw much i appriciate u.and hw much i love u dad.without u,i am nobody.
i hate my bf in a loving way can? coz sometimes what i ever wanted was someone whu can LISTEN while i talk.*sigh
i so dont feel like gg to sch later on.
its the weekends again ppl.
ENJOY YR WEEKENDS!!
GD NIGHT!!
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Wednesday, January 16, 2008, 00:58
lets talk abt sch.my attandance is seriously dropping by 100%.maybe.?i dont noe.and im lost.seriously especially my maths lesson.argh!theres just no motivation at all to go to sch.the peeps.arrgh!the environment.arrrrghhh!!god noes hw i feel.
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY JAM!!
may u have a blessful and sucessful life ahead.(:
to aja
be strong babe.we'll make it thru this dark period together.may sound easy.bt its real tough.i noe.im just a phone call away.be there whenever u need me.always think on the positive side orite.(:
CHEER UP!!!
the only thing im grateful in life is to have him in my life.i couldnt ask for more.
GD NIGHT!!
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Tuesday, January 15, 2008, 15:14
no one.
no body.
is ever
ever
PERFECT.
good night!
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Monday, January 14, 2008, 14:10
on sat went to work after which proceed to town with bf.initial plan was to meet his fren aleh and 2 other girls.watch movie and buy things BUT BUT BUT when we reached there there was aleh, 2 biatches,man, adi and his fren.after a while nad,duk and ima came.thanks bf for the new shoe. i love it baby!!!(: we then went to have our dinner at mc.then met siti for a while.i miss her soooooo.. adi asked me and bf to accompany him to mos because there was some event.bt ended up we went karaoke.haha.it was weird ah.then i only sang 1 song.(: the session end at ard 1plusplus.after which everone was already broke!haha.and by that time left adi,man bf and me.we sat ard paragon and we end up mcm bdk giler coz ade byk tikus.hahah.it was really funny laa.spend time with bf till morning.(: i only got to sleep for a few hrs then went to work.and im late as usual.and nw im really very2 shag. arrgh!
thanks for fetching and sending me to work daily w/o fail.
thanks for making me smile.
thanks for everything.
im just lost for words.
i appreciate everything.
and btw this song below is the song that i sang wif bf.(:
Bagaimana harus aku
Menahan rasa rinduku
Bila kau tiada di sisi
Tak dapat ku membayangkan
Rasa rindu dalam jiwa
Kita sama sama rasa
Ku menyayangi mu
Hingga akhir hayat nanti
Pasti kan bersama aaa...
Ku mengharapkan mu
Untuk meneruskan
Perjalanan cinta ini ooo...
Aku cinta aku rindu
Walau berjauhan
Ku tahu hatimu
Aku cinta aku rindu
Tuhan berkatilah
Cinta ku padanya ooo...
Bagaimana harus aku
Menahan rasa rinduku
Bila kau tiada disisi
Tak dapat ku membayangkan
Rasa rindu dalam jiwa
Kita sama sama rasa oo...
Ku menyayangi mu
Hingga akhir hayat nanti
Pasti kan bersama oo...
Ku mengharapkan mu
Untuk meneruskan
Perjalanan cinta ini oo...
Aku cinta aku rindu
Walau berjauhan
Ku tahu hatimu
Aku cinta aku rindu
Tuhan berkatilah
Cinta ku padanya
Ya e...hey...oo...
Ku mengharapkan mu
N: & A:
Untuk meneruskan
Perjalanan cinta ini oo...
Aku cinta aku rindu
Walau berjauhan
Ku tahu hatimu
Aku cinta aku rindu
Tuhan berkatilah
Cinta ku padanya
Aku cinta aku rindu
Walau berjauhan
Ku tahu hatimu
Aku cinta aku rindu
Tuhan berkatilah
Cinta ku padanya
Tuhan berkatilah
Cinta kita berdua
im so fat!arrgh!
loved!
hes mine!
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Saturday, January 12, 2008, 01:15
the sound of your voice.
the touch of your hand.
the smell of u.
i love u bf!
the touch of your hand.
the smell of u.
i love u bf!
and it keeps getting better.
(:
When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what
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Friday, January 11, 2008, 17:29
HELLO WORLD!
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09.01.08
i didnt went to sch.AGAIN.hmm.first day of work was great.training as usual.frm 1- 5.refresh my memory.(: im so thankful i got the job.maybe this time i shld stay longer.hehe.after which bf was SUPPOSED to fetch me bt ended up me fetching him.i waited for him as usual under his blk.and as usual he was late.super2 late.then he ask me y i wasnt mad.ahaha.the reason?just because u did this too often,i don't want to waste my time getting mad at you. BACIN!arrgh! because my hand is healing well,we decided to eat seafood.we had ikan bakar,sweet and sour chicken and tom yam soup.thanks for the treat LOVE.(:we sat down ,talk2. then went home.(:
10.01.08
today i didnt went to sch.i woke up already,bt then,i felt lazineess so i decided to skip lesson. haha. went to moms place.then bf fetch me to go home. (:
and today one of my BESTEST fren is leaving me to serve the country.ns send him to thailand.its gonna be a while since we will meet up.*sigh*zack,i will pray that u'll be safe there.(:
a note to bf:
thanks for everything. eventhough at times u really got on my nerves and i feel like killing u.aha.deep down inside,i love u.really i do.and i'm afraid of losing u.cause we really went thru lots of rough patch together.and we're still holding on. i hope and pray this love will never fade away.im sure there will be a lot more challanges ahead awaits us.(:
HAPPY WEEKENDS!
GD NIGHT!!
GD NIGHT!!
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Wednesday, January 9, 2008, 16:27
i wonder what's the use of saying sorry and don't mean it?
& yeah,we all lie. to get the fcuk out of trouble.
ok fuct.
i just feel that something is missing.
& yeah,we all lie. to get the fcuk out of trouble.
ok fuct.
i just feel that something is missing.
bt i fcuking dont know what isit.
fuct again.
pardon my language.
GD NIGHT!
pardon my language.
GD NIGHT!
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Tuesday, January 8, 2008, 17:07
sch reopens today.and i didnt went to sch becoz i just dont feel like it.so,koled up bf and we made plans.was supposed to watch movie bt then somehw all the movies are boring,we just decided to spend time by talking.he never fail to make me smile eveytime hes ard.i hope and hope and keep on hoping that my hand will be back to it normal state soon.i miss my hand. *fuct!*on a brighter side,i gt a new job.will be starting this wed.cant wait.(:
and i love my life nw.with my frens,it really has been a while since we met up.miss them a lots. family wise,been kind of complicated.as it always have been.bt then,the only person whu i feel safe and sure with is my bf,faris.thank you.looking foward to more great memories this yr.
i LOVE u.
i've been thinking of uploading the pics of my hand when it was injured bt then everytime i looked at the pics,i felt that it was GROSS.ahaha.so,i decided nt to.
26.12.07.a night to remember for the rest of my life.
& thanks to everyone whu cared and ask me hw i was.appriciated frens.(:
i miss those hands.*SOBS*
a slight preview of my injuries.haha.
ok then!thats it.
GD NIGHT WORLD!!
toodles.
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Sunday, January 6, 2008, 19:40
theres just soo much to blog.and i dont noe where to start.maybe i shld just sleep and update when i feel like it.
oh btw.happy BELATED new year.
tata.
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