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Monday, August 24, 2009, 22:09
new love is like pregnancy; you should wait 3 months before telling anybody your exciting news.When you are falling for somebody, you can tell people you are dating but you want to keep quiet about just how excited you are untill you passed that critical 3 months; things are just too fragile and unsure before that. Not that things cant go wrong after that poing, but theres a better chance that things are healthy and will stick..=)
how time really flies..its my 3rd year celebrating the bulan puase with mr faris.i am really very happy with him nw the past years was quiet disasterous but we learned a lot and we are still standing strong and loving each other more than ever.
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im going to update my blog today becoz im gg to the mcdonalds open house on sunday..haaha..semangat pe?
anyway,this week is super tiring.on mon & tue was work and sch as usual and then on wed already planned to take mc as aku malas nk pegi keje and nk kua so g poly.and then mlm nye aku betol2 sakit.demam high fever la seyy.haaha.so on thur mc betol2 la sakit.rested at home.and then just now was work as usual and then went to shasha home to do our group project.tomorrows plan will be a date with ema gf and sun as i mentioned earlier and then a date with mf boify.heehe.and for the first time its already mid month and i still have lots of kaching left.heehe.
kwn2 jgn lupe save duit beli hadiah yeee.. 31th july lagi brape hari je..haaaha
hello. my days are so busy and i am very tired.walaupun tempat keje depan uma,its still so tired..there are some days where i have to rush from work to school and when im nt rushing i will meet bf to eat.and by the time i reach home my batt is already flat.i dont even touch the comp on weekdays now and my pet is left smelly and hungry..heehe. anyway,work is great i got the job i wanted so what more cn i ask for and the ppl are also great..but sadly the teacher in charge of my class is leaving already and tuesday is her last day..so after that diyanah and me will have to plan the lesson for the kids..hopefully i cn cope la eh.coz with my sch work and all,im just worried i might nt be able to. anyway went to watch transformers last week and it was awesome but i dont quiet understand la.need to watch it again when i have the time.=) on fri i skipped sch to celebrate dyna & wan pari bdae.it was held at east coast park and as usual la kn dorg lmbt..8.30pm janji tapi only we know what time they reached.heehe. at least we didnt reached last.and after that we went for bowling.it was a fun filled evening.=) and ysterday went to celebrate aja bdae.we ate seoul garden and no pics coz alfa forgot to bring camera and bdae girl was pretty upset.i bought for her a dress hope she love it. next will be my bdae.the bf have already bought for me a puma sweater and a baby-g watch and i am so loving it..oh,i cant wait for the actual day celebration.and then i will skip school again coz my bdae falls on a friday.-___-
and i am so getting fat like seriously. diet please.-_____-
so; happy 24th bdae to dyna happy 22nd bdae to aja happy 22nd bdae to wan pari may you guys have a fun filled life and stay happy always. =)
Listening is an attitude of the heart, a genuine desire to be with another which both attracts and heals.
tuesday - start work @ childcare.=) wednesday - kaaaaaching & date with mr.F.=) what a way to start a week and yeah JULY is coming!=) in short,i am HAPPY.
anyway,2009 is not gg the way i want it to so far.lots and lots of hiccups here and there,but still,this is what makes life worth living right?these life experince is pricless.
so now i am back to school but on a part-time basis.taking up a cert on early childood education.and working part time at diners club and seriously,i have not even work for a mth and im already getting bored of the job.i guess im not the kind of person to work in an office.mendaks ok!theres a comp but with no internet connection.its an easy job with great pay,but seriously,its just bored.haaaha.cerewet kn huda.
anyway,i wanna share smthing.just now i was in my room all alone during evening time,nk maghirb.so i on the radio to warna to hear the azan.i closed my windows and curtains all.then when the azan was over kn ade bace doa2,so i kept silent and then i heard voices at my back.it sounded like "tolong" "tolong".so,i turned ard there was nothing but i just have the feeling that something/someone was over there some where.i keep silent and tried to hear it.it wasn't clear but i swear i heard it la seyy.it sounded like a nenek tue voice,so what i did next?kluaaaa bilekk..
and to think that i have to stay home alone for a week starting from 12th june.everyone is ggt malacca and im stuck at home coz of sch & work.tell me how?i will only reach home like 11.30pm eveyday and da la rumah aku sunyi mlm2.*sigh*
"im sory if i made her cry,not my intention.but i was just pissed off.im sorry.my apologies from the bottom of my heart"
i started school yesterday and as usual,im the last few to arrive.not my fault anyway,the machine nk beli standad tix was jam.haaha.kalau tk da siang daa.=) anyway,saw a fren of mine also in the same class.at least ade kwn la kn.and baru start skola thurs da tkde lesson.org da semangats ni.i am so looking foward.heehe.oh and there are some rules which i hate to follow. 1)no slippars and shorts.-____-aku da la tk byk kasot.on a brighter side this gives me a reason to shop,but trust me,i will still end up buying slippars.heehe 2)no using of hp during lesson.hp MUST be switched OFF.double -____- 3)the teacher keep on repeating this "BE PUNCTUAL". its only a 5min grace time allowed. wahhlowweei!5 mins ehh.tripple -_____- this just means i have to be more disipline.and in case you guys are wondering what time i start sch.its 6.30PM.haaha.tetap lmbt!!hudahuda. so now mon,wed,sat and alternate sunday is work and tue,thur,fri is school. tell me how am i gg to meet my frens?-____- and i am so not looking foward to october la..haiyoh!can time please go slower? and rez please eh jgn nk memandai2 nk tutup blog.bile kau g ns bole aku bace kn bile aku bored. ok? have a great week ahead people.
oh,and i think that the bf and i just seem to have more and more fren in common.this singapore is so damn small la.and the bf will always say this "i rase kalau i tk nmpk u kt skola pon mesti kite teserempak kt lua eh?" and i will say "eleh,step u nk je u kn ramai peminat" and he will say "eleh dorg yg nk i tapi i nk you aje." haahaa.extra sweetness la him. syg awk mr faris!
Kasih.. maafkan diriku Banyak dosaku padamu Tidak terhitung jari jemari daku Tak dapat dibilang bagai bintang beribu Sukarnya diriku menebus kekhilafan yang lalu
Kasih.. engkau tak bersalah Hanya hatiku yang buta Tulus dan ikhlas kau korban jiwa raga Dan tanpa belas ku buat kau kecewa Ku tahu dirimu sukar melupakan segalanya
"Those who appear in your life; whether to help or harm; are all given by God.Meet all of them with a peaceful heart but with a warrior's spirit. You will fail many times but in failing,you will learn & in learning you will find your way. Remember, there are no mistakes in life; only lessons. And lessons will keep repeating themselves untill learned."
-a msg i received from a fren
people can all just talk.but i am the one who is in it and im the one who is feeling it.
maybe to some it may just be a small issue but to me its not.
it sucks when yr bf trust his fren more than you.and is willing to share something that is so personal.
and its hard when eveytime only when you have make the mistake and i wish to walk away,you stopped me.and said that ur sorry and u realise your mistake.
why is it always that way?why does it have to happen and then you will realise the consequnces.
where is your brain?
dont you ever think before doing it?if you knew it would hurt me then why do it?
i know i made some mistakes too,but hey,at least i dont tell my fren something so personal like what u had typed in that msg.and if you think that its not possible to trust me again,maybe we shld just lead our own seperate lifes.no use forcing.its things are meant to be,it will be.
remember;people will know only what we choose to let them know.
before a guy acctually gets the girl,he is willing to do anything and everything but after that?its just a cheap talk.
anyway i have sign up for a course in early childhood.so in short i have acctually wasted 4 years in ITE and not getting in the industry with my cert.haha.but no regrets,coz i made lots of great frens.:)) and im gg to an interview tomorrow.
wish me luck people.
"Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go."
i hate this time of the month.all i want to do is sleep so that i wont feel the pain.:( anyway enjoy this video.it was at esplanade and sorry it is senget ehh.hehe.btw the 2nd guy is good.and i missed recording their opening ceremony when both of them di their 'ting' together,it was super nice.:)
"It is the things in common that make relationships enjoyable, but it is the little differences that make them interesting."
He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you
i hate my eyebags!!blearrrgh~ anyway today was great.coz i got to meet adeq,like finally after 3 years?of not meeting.and also kai.thanks a lot for the treat adeq.and also the dress.heehe.love it.:) evnthough it was only for a while,but i really appriciate it girls.looooveyoutwo.
"Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once."
yesterday will have to be the most 'memorable' day in my life.anyway,i am so glad and aku really2 bersyukur whatever happen yesterday,did.if not i will be kept in the dark.and there will always be a point in one's realtionship that they were given a challange/obstacles so huge,but at the end of it all,it makes us realise who is the right one and it will make our relationship stonger than ever.like they say 'things that don't kill us will just makes us stronger':) to ima; thanks a lot for the advices and everything.you have been neutral all along and i now do realise eveything.and thanks for just being there to listen.:)
to faris; thanks for being patient.and i thank you so much coz you never did ever give up on us.like basit said 'true love will always win' and baby,you did.:) for you;
& i need a fcuking job laaaaaaaaaaa.-_________________-
"Everyone is a friend, until they prove otherwise.coz a friend never judge." ~think abt it.
i have changed my blogskin to the same as ema..i have been wanting this skin for idontknowsincewhen.weeeeeee.
today i am veryveryveryveryvery the bosan.i have been on the net since like 12plus till now.everybody else is busy working and schooling but here i am rotting at home.eat&eat&eat. anyway,yesterday i went for a job interview.acctually i had 2 but i only went for 1.why?because the second interview was at paya lebar and it was at 5pm,but it was already 4.30 and there i was still at bukit panjang just finish my interview.i think i need to start having some self discpline.*mcm paham*anybody has any jobs for me?aku da tk cerewet tapi kalau boleh,i wanna it ard cck to jurong or cck to woodlands area.haha.
anyway,how do we differntate between someone sweet-talking to you or talking with sincerity through sms?hmmm.*wonders*
Dear huda, You are a person who needs a partner who is responsible financially with an education, who will share responsibilities with you, support you emotionally and keep up with the heat and romance. Effort is a big thing for you and you need to see efforts being made by your partner often. Lack of efforts makes you feel like you may not be worth it in your partner's eyes and can cause problems in your relationship. Just remember that your partner can only do what he/she knows and cannot read your mind. If your partner is investing effort, but not quire as much as you would like, or not in a way that makes you feel special, just talk to him/her. Let your partner know that you love him/her and appreciate that he/she does for you, but also need and desire more. Then tell him/her what those needs and desires are. Open and honest communication with your partner will help your relationship grow into a more close and loving one. Understanding and caring about each other needs is key to making a relationship work.
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"Mungkinkah caraku Melukakan hatimu Maafkanlah daku Oh sayangku Sampai bilakah aku harus menanti Sampai bilakah aku harus menangis Sampai bilakah aku harus menanti dirimu Sampai bilakah cinta kita begini"
yesterday was out the whole day.it was a date with ema.:)first to sentosa then to suntec then to laupasat and then to tanjong pagar,which kite pon tk tau how we end up there.i applied for a few positons at the career fair.harap2 dpt la kn.now,i am just so getting bored rotting at home.-___- after that we went back to suntec where we parted ways.ema went home by taking a bus and i went to met mr S & co. we walk2 a bit and talk2 then we parted ways and he sent me home.:) overall i had fun yesterday.hope to do it again soon.
"The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson."
i am down with sore throat,flu and fever.i feel like my asthma is coming.haish.i hate this feeling.so much of wanting both of them well, in the end,aku yg sakit jgk. anyway,i have decided to let nature takes it course. whatever happens,happens. if things are meant to be,it will.like people say 'kalau jodoh tk kemana'. no use if i keep on thinking about these unnecessary stuffs and let it affect my precious health.anyway,i appriciate all my frens care and concern. i am so blessed with you guys. thanks. sayang korg byk2.:)
my week was already well plan untill i have to stay home and rest today.sorry fidah.maybe besok aku feel better we will go k?i have been gg to karoke for 3 sessions already.and aku still tk puas.-____- hope you guys pray i get well soon,coz i need a job asap.i can't be selling grapes anymore,coz my economy is falling down.
The heart has its reasons which reason does not know.
"ya allah berikan lah ku kekuatan untuk mengharungi segala dugaan yang ku hadapi." amin.
"In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster But in front of the person you like , you get happy.
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile.
In front of the person you love, you can' t say everything on your mind But in front of the person you like, you can.
In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy But in front of the person you like, you can show your ownself.
Then person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes. You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.
When the one you love is crying, you cry with them But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
The feeling of love starts from the eye And the feeling of like starts from the ear.
So if you stop liking a person you used to like All you need to do is cover your ears, But if you try to close your eyes Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after." ~author unknown
guys are much more complicated humans than us girls.i don't know why they tend to take us for granted.why can't they learn to treasure and appreciate us when we are still ther ein front of them,willing to wait and keep on giving them chance to change.but only when us,girls decided that it;s time to go, they will start realizing that they love us and stuffs.it sucks. guys are freaking asshole. -__________________-
i just hope and pray that whatever decision that i come up with will be the best for all of us. and i hope that the person whom i choose will be able to love,treasure and appreciate me forever. cos i can't bear to drag this matter any longer its hurting all of us. haish.
"People never know how special someone is until they leave, but maybe sometimes its important to leave, so they are given that chance to see how special that someone really is" ~how true.
Seperti mimpi perkenalan itu cuma seketika Namun didalam hati dirimu ku terkenang jua Engkaulah permata didalam genggaman tidak kusedari Kaca yang bersadur keemasan terus kucari
Tertutup pintu hati, minda tak berfungsi diketika itu Tak tahu menilai mana yang tulin mana yang palsu Diakhir-akhir ini ketika aku dalam kesepian Terasa kejahilan itu bagiku satu kerugian
school is o-v-e-r. exam was ok la.i was glad all the qn that i memorise came out.alhamdulilah. just gonna wait for the results.and i still have not decide to continue study or work.hmm.i'm quitting my part time job soon.so after the 16th i'm officially selling grapes.sape2 nk beli dtg la cck.hahaha! anyway i just feel happy today.it's feels so good to finally finish school which i dread gg to daily. and ending the day with meeting mr.S just makes my day.:)
it would be funny to see a guy stumble upon something while he was looking at you and not concentrating ryte?but would it be funny if that's your boify checking out other girls and them stumble in front of you?i don't think so.just thinking why some guys just love looking at other girls in the presence of their gf.don't they have respect for the girls?and will that behavior ever change? anyway,its not about me since now i am officially single.but its just something i had wanted to blog about a long time ago,but somehow,i dont know why i did not. anyway i think that i am more happy and more me after breaking up with him. thanks for frens who have always been there for me.i love you guys a lot.:) but now,i am just confuse.haha! contradicting ryte?i know. k bye!
"A smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks. " ~Charles Gordy
i just loveeeeeeeeeeeee looking at this pic of me.i dont know why.and i love looking thru my 2006 photos.i miss those hair,those body and those legs.haish.p/s this pic wasn't taken in 2006.
somebody at work is just so damn childish.blearrrgh!da lah childish ,ego pulak tu.guys,they are such an irritating people. thats why we only celebrate international womens day and not mens. because they are not worth it.-______-
anyway,wish me luck for my exam ok.its on tuesday.
sat was out with the happy people.and i did some shopping.bought a shirt from cotton on.and 2 dresses from fareast.total spent was ard 50.
a few weeks ago,i went to the hospital to visit a fren who was involved in a bike accident,it was quiet bad.i pray he get well soon.and few days ago,i accompanied a fren of mine,fidah to visit her fren at NUH and i really pity her,all the sufferings that she suffred. i don't think i can ever pull thru something like that.and she passed away on that nite,at ard 10 pm.be strong k fidah:) al-fatiha. sometimes it makes me think who are the people who will be there will be in my last few hours of myu life.will the pepople i hope to be there,be?or will people just come when i am gone?
yesterday work sucks.i was working with a new operator to happen to be the boss nephew.and i get scolded for nothing.how would i know that she doesn't know anything.my boss didn't tell me to tech her,so i assume that she knows,and yesterday was super2 busy.
karaoke with ema was great just now. it somehow makes me high.haha.we sang all genre from jiwangs to rnb to dangdut.thanks for listening gf.and after karoke went to have our breakfast+lunch+dinner at lucky plaza.nasi ayam penyet again, padahal sat aru mkn.after that we slacked at taka garden and home sweet home. and also i collected my beg which i have bought online at tampines.saye suker beg baru saye.this month i am overspending already.and i have just bought another dress online just a few mins ago.gosh!!someone stop me!-__- &this few days the moment i lie on the bed,i will dozz off in less than 5mins.maybe i am too tired, this last few days of sch seems to be passing by quickly.i will miss school,for sure.tomorrow will be my last day in school with my class and they will be odering some pizza and some other foods.and also for the last lesson there will be a presntation for the last time with cikgu botak.
This girl is a B-I-T-C-H. she snatches other peoples bf and then feel guilty. and the thing is she is a filipino.i don't have anything against them but nw i do. she breaks up my fren's relationship how cn i not be pissed. blearrgh. i have 1 wish,i hope karma falls upon her,soon.
friday was out with ima,fiza& is to watch ema perform.overall the performance was a great one except if there wasn't the bf exgf there, i would probably love the show even more.-__- to ema;your performance is great ok,i would love to watch more of it,but next time stand in front la.heehee.:) but still it was great meeeting harris after a long period of mia.we did some cathing up & im glad all of them are fine.and i didnt get to have a loooooooooooooooong chat with ema coz dorg sungguh lembab tukar baju.and we only managed to take 3 pics.school is ending soon so,lets meet up gf. talking of school i have to hand in my flash project tomorrow and i still have a lot to do.and tomorrow will be a WAD theory test after which we will do our video shoots. and then END!
sunday was out the whole day.it was ana's birthday so,chah planned to surprise her at cwp pizza hut.i hope she loves the dress,she will look absolutely beautiful in it,im sure.:)
The day I said "i am only yours" I wish I didn't mean that. but sad thing was, I did mean it .. Thats why its hard for me... to put you outside of my world.. cause you're already here; in the deepest part of it.